As artists, especially writers, we clasp to our work so closely as we
hide our papers under our arms. We are often intimidated to share our
works with other talented artists and can become insecure and think…Is
this good enough? Will other people like this? But is their work better?
I am sure nearly all writers have felt this way and when collaborating
with other writers, we would become even more protective and insecure of
our work. I mean, I compare myself to Charles Bukowski and am often
left feeling let down and jealous of his magnificent writing mind. In a
Brain Pickings article titled, Annie Dillard on Writing put together by
Maria Popova, Dillard states,
“The notion that one can
write better during one season of the year than another Samuel Johnson labelled, “Imagination operating upon luxury.” Another luxury for an idle
imagination is the writer’s own feeling about the work. There is
neither a proportional relationship, nor an inverse one, between a
writer’s estimation of a work in progress and its actual quality. The
feeling that the work is magnificent and the feeling that it is
abominable, are both mosquitoes to be repelled, ignored, or killed, but
not indulged.”
What Dillard says hits a little too close
to home. As a writer I can sometimes indulge in my work too deeply.
Instead of questioning ourselves and over-analysing our writing, we
should just write and write and write, whether we think it is a
masterpiece or rubbish, just keep going. No work is set in stone and can
always be edited and changed. It is all part of the creative process
and becoming comfortable with your work, but there is always room for
improvement. Creating art is to be vulnerable. It is allowing other
people to take a visit into the deepest corners of your mind and to
accept whatever criticisms or praises come your way. The most rewarding
thing for me when writing and listening to what other people feel about
my work is when they say, “I can relate to that.” To read something that
a stranger has written with their heart sitting on the desk next to
them and feeling like you can relate to what this person is going
through is the most rewarding thing about reader/writer relationships.
Yes, some may say, that we read to be informed or entertained, but the
most significant reason why I read and write is to feel less alone and
to make others feel the same.
Creating real and true
works, pouring your heart and soul into your writing is what we need
more of. To stop worrying what other people think of our work and just
create by staying true to ourselves. We must not indulge in our
insecurities; to let it all go, write and fearlessly share it with
others. Because what is the point of creating something if it cannot be
shared? Dillard says it perfectly once again,
“One of
the few things I know about writing is this: spend it all, shoot it,
play it, lose it, all, right away, every time. Do not hoard what seems
good for a later place in the book, or for another book; give it, give
it all, give it now. The impulse to save something good for a better
place later is the signal to spend it now… Anything you do not give
freely and abundantly becomes lost to you. You open your safe and find
ashes.”
Therefore, are there times when you have been too
afraid to share your work? Or been too critical on yourself? If so,
why? The fact that you have already created something is brave in
itself.
The first time I had work critiqued, it was in a class. We spent twenty minutes writing from a prompt, and then shared our work in small groups. My group tore my piece apart. Try to imagine a pack of velociraptors tearing apart a cute, furry animal. It felt a lot like that. It was painful, and it shook my confidence- I'd been so busy seeking out the positives in other people's work that I hadn't expected people to be seeking out the flaws in my own. It took a while for me to realise that it was silly to be nervous about other people not liking my work- I don't think anyone can say anything about my work that's meaner than the things I've said about it.
ReplyDeleteI tend to look at 'critical' from the rear view mirror, to be honest. I'm more the 'downright cruel to my work' type of creative, which is a huge problem. It's such a creativity killer to pick apart every little thing you make, and it takes the fun out of it. I've been spending this year looking at ways to stop being so self-critical, and the best lesson I've found comes from an Australian artist named Jane Davenport (www.janedavenport.com). In all of her workshops she has a rule: treat your creation like it's an actual person. If you wouldn't say it about a friend or relative, you shouldn't say it about your creative works. It's probably the most important lesson I've come across in terms of creativity- the more you find the good, the more fun you have, and the more you create. The more you focus on the tiny niggling imperfections, the more you start to be dismissive of the fantastic things you create, and the harder it is to create.
Anyone else have any advice for being less self critical?